An Open Apology to Anyone Who was Ever a Student

One true miracle that has come out of my chronic diseases has been my fledgling, but redemptive pursuit of singing. At first, singing was my greatest childhood love, then my silenced passion, and ultimately my most crippling fear. These posts, written in scarlet (a color of redemption), comprise my testimony to the life-altering beauty that can unexpectedly emerge from hard times. Honestly, I can’t sing very well yet. It is my ongoing challenge but also my life’s most fulfilling pursuit. I never knew just how revelatory this beautifully vulnerable adventure would be. In this series, I’d like to invite you to join me in resurrecting a silenced dream, pursuing a muted passion, or overcoming a lifelong fear. Why not you? Why not now? The Singing Series – Part 1

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You’ll never amount to anything.
Why can’t you be more like your brother?
You just don’t look the part.

You don’t have what it takes.
You’re so lazy.
Sorry, but no.

How many of you have ever had a teacher, coach, parent, older adult, or someone of authority tell you that you weren’t good enough to do something? Has your spirit ever been devastatingly crushed by just a few ill-spoken words?

And why do those words still echo in our minds so loudly, even today?

Words of unfounded criticism.
Sentences of confinement.
Ridiculous comparisons.
Charges of worthlessness.

Why can those early criticisms STILL bring even extremely successful adults to a point of nothingness?

How did we lose our wide-eyed wonderment of childhood and our perception of boundless potential?

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Making the Most of a Disappointing Situation Part 3

hope deferred is still hope

Rather than offer platitudes about hypothetical disappointing situations, I thought it would probably be more helpful to speak candidly from my own dark well of deep hurt. It’s a place that I rarely shine light upon, especially in public. At times, I love the whir of society and the many involvements that inhabit our daily agendas. However, when it comes to connecting on these deep levels of personal pain, it can be hard to find a safe space amongst the busyness. We need a place where we can be real. So instead of giving you a shined up version of myself, here’s a recount of my biggest life disappointment, raw and un-prettied.

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Making the Most of a Disappointing Situation Part 1

finding the beauty in dissonance

Is there an aspect of your life that you find disappointing?
A finish line that is seemingly too far away?
A hope that’s been battered uninvitedly?

These situations are all too common, and it can feel so isolating. We can’t help but ask, “Why is this happening to me?”

These are the disappointments that threaten to completely commandeer my focus.

So in this series of posts, I’m inviting you to go to  battle with me.
To find and fight for the good.

It’s SO important to me, however, for you to know that I still want everyone to honor, value, and express real, raw, and authentic emotion.  It’s so healthy, even critical, for us to feel our anger, sadness, disappointment, confusion, grief, and any other feeling that comes up. In some cases, the disappointment may be so tragic that a dose of positivity may feel too sugary or even downright trite. We honor that too. If that’s the case, these posts may be for a different day.

Given those caveats, where are the treasures in times like these? These disappointments are too hard to not have value.

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Transitioning Back to Blogging

This post is a bit transitional, but it still does include some of my ruminations regarding life lessons. 

transitioning back to blogging inner tortoise

In my last post, I said that I would be back blogging regularly again soon.  However, that was (gulp) eleven weeks ago.  Alas, I have had such a hard time finding my sea legs lately (spoken legitimately as a periodic, recreational kayaker).

The only things running away from me faster than time does?  My inboxes.

Perhaps you can relate?

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