An Open Apology to Anyone Who was Ever a Student

One true miracle that has come out of my chronic diseases has been my fledgling, but redemptive pursuit of singing. At first, singing was my greatest childhood love, then my silenced passion, and ultimately my most crippling fear. These posts, written in scarlet (a color of redemption), comprise my testimony to the life-altering beauty that can unexpectedly emerge from hard times. Honestly, I can’t sing very well yet. It is my ongoing challenge but also my life’s most fulfilling pursuit. I never knew just how revelatory this beautifully vulnerable adventure would be. In this series, I’d like to invite you to join me in resurrecting a silenced dream, pursuing a muted passion, or overcoming a lifelong fear. Why not you? Why not now? The Singing Series – Part 1

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You’ll never amount to anything.
Why can’t you be more like your brother?
You just don’t look the part.

You don’t have what it takes.
You’re so lazy.
Sorry, but no.

How many of you have ever had a teacher, coach, parent, older adult, or someone of authority tell you that you weren’t good enough to do something? Has your spirit ever been devastatingly crushed by just a few ill-spoken words?

And why do those words still echo in our minds so loudly, even today?

Words of unfounded criticism.
Sentences of confinement.
Ridiculous comparisons.
Charges of worthlessness.

Why can those early criticisms STILL bring even extremely successful adults to a point of nothingness?

How did we lose our wide-eyed wonderment of childhood and our perception of boundless potential?

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Belief

a small miracle

This is a guest post by my sister, Noelle Dey.  Art piece above by her daughter, Sierra.

It was a consequence of time mis-management.

Please tell me I’m not the only one who has these days.

It’s the kind of day when I get frustrated watching a pedestrian slowly walk to the other side of the street as I seethe at a red light.

Or when I start counting the items in the shopping carts in front of me to see if they really have ten items or less.

But this morning my time-crunching meltdown came in the form of glitter.

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When It All Hangs in the Balance

raw honesty

At this very moment, I am wondering which way the scale will tip.

On Friday, I’m having a double laparoscopic surgery, with two different surgeons for two different issues.  If the surgeries are both successful, I literally have the hope of living more normally!! After all these years, how UNBELIEVABLY AMAZING would that be??  After countless days of unending pain, this possibility is beyond overwhelming.

However, there are no guarantees.  One of the surgeries is very tenuous.  If things look too complicated, the surgeon will conservatively abort the procedure as the risk would be too great to proceed.  In all honesty, the thought of living the rest of my life in this amount of pain feels impossibly confronting.

While my blog is usually more about life lessons than my day-to-day health issues, this impending surgery is such a big deal in my life right now, it just didn’t feel right to not acknowledge it.  So, this post will be a dash of raw honesty from yours truly.  :)

Though our stories may likely be quite different, I’m quite sure that you’ve also faced situations where the stakes were sky high.

Emotionally, how do we handle these times?

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Why this blog?

the melody in malady

When your whole world suddenly changes in a seeming instant… when you can’t stop your dreams from crashing at your feet… when things don’t make sense and you wonder why your prayers are the ones that keep going unanswered…

Your eyes start searching and your soul starts aching.

You have to find something to ease the pain.

To quiet the fear.

A ray of hope.

A piece of beauty.

Something to hold on to.

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